I, me, myself.... I , DCH, ZNMD.

I was touched, thrilled, excited, exuberant... multiple emotions raced through me when I first watched Dil Chahta Hai. Years back, during my MBA days. Fully aware and knowing that it was JUST one story nicely told, I was swept away with the charisma created in that moment... I was not alone, all 16 friends found themselves alone when we were walking out of movie hall. At least I felt so. For few moments there were none but only me (for everyone, I guess), thinking deep within. It would be childish if I start talking about what movie was about but somehow it was so strong that almost every single person could find himself or herself somewhere connected to it.

Yesterday, I felt the same set of emotions running within me again. I watched Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara. Guess what, I just did not know how it was going to end, only a thought came to me that it should not end in any standard way where people live 'happily ever after'. I was wondering what next.. what next? and voila!! there it was.. end title! Movie ACTUALLY ended exactly where I would have loved it to.

I was so excited that I almost ran down the stepped hall to exit. I don't know about others (there were not many... less than 25 people in complete hall) but I was amazed with movie. To me, it was a perfect part 2 of Dil Chahta Hai. Reasons? ah... do I really need to discuss them?... now??? naa...!
Goes without saying, it has become one of my all time favorite list. Have you seen it? what is your reaction to it? NO.. not thoughtful analysis, not even review.. just what punched between your eyes. just like that. or it is just me, over excited about it? 

You know what makes me to connect with a movie, with a story, with anything for that matter?? it is what I see as a part of my own life. Not necessarily I should have lived it but may be even what I would love to be  part of, at some point in my life. Looks like these movie have smaller parts of me in their story, or probably their characters are carrying it, even better... I AM carrying smaller part of all those movies within me. A bit of Titanic, a bit of DCH a bit of Anand, a bit of 36 chambers, a bit of so many others...

Have you read 'The Alchemist' ?? guess you must have... (if not, sure you are missing some good read). That story also falls under the same category and I feel the best part is to understand the two sides of being at one place, simple changed in point of view (or the perspective) creates so much difference. "I am yet to decide if I am only two days away from my home or two days closer to my dream?" not exactly the same words, yet you would be able to recall it.

Am I alone to feel this way? I am ok even if I am the only one, but certainly it would be great to know otherwise. 

Again a bit abrupt end of blog. 

No, I have not stopped thinking, it won't happen. "I think, therefore I am". someone said years back and is so true with me. Problem remains with the conversion. I discovered something else in last few months... thoughts are not ONLY words or sentences roaming within the psyche space. At times they are so unclear and so much cluttered with feelings, emotions that giving them words becomes so difficult for me. At times thoughts are just feelings, some times not even feelings, just energy and in some rare moments .. the golden ones comes in the form of ... EMPTINESS; lit bright inside, while sitting on the rock on a sea shore, or on a high rise peek somewhere in the Himalayas, or while in train, traveling with myself............ no words, no sentences, nothing... just plain simple nothing!   

At times I become so eager to share all those, just don't know with who, when, how?